Sleep does not come to me easily when so much is left undone. Getting out this most basic of Sonnyboo Podcast gave me so much relief. I put in a minimal amount of effort and even thought into it. The animations are rudimentary, and the statements so basic that it was almost not worth it, but then there is something the content that I feel passionate about.
Carving out time for myself is so hard at the moment. Iíve got so much work to do, miraculously paid work at the moment, which does NOT suck. What does suck is not having time to do anything for me. I shot a new podcast on Friday with the express purpose of getting it done ASAP just to have something new. It was written and shot with minimal work, and yet I cannot help but do a few new things.
Ideas creep up unexpectedly. In the car on the way to the Columbus Adobe Userís Group, a new Sonnyboo Podcast occurred to me and as soon as I got to the location, I wrote down the entire thing. These simple :90 second podcasts donít take long to shoot and I like to re-write them a few times before getting on the greenscreen.
FINALLY! Something worked the way it was supposed to. Adobe Media Encoder has been sometimes buggy. Youíre supposed to be able to load up an entire queue of a hundred videos to get encoded for the web, then go away and come back hours later and magically they are done. That hasnít worked for me in years, but I finally licked it and got it to work (by deleted a surround sound encoder file). Now, I can load up a lot of videos and get some damn rest. If only my new mattress had worked as magically...
About the only way I could be creative yesterday was printing already designed DVD inserts for FRAMELINES and also long delayed postcards. I did also order four 6 foot banners for only $10 each, two for FRAMELINES, one for Sonnyboo, and another one. They were on sale and for the upcoming conventions and events, I think these will do wonders for the vendor table.
Last night, forgot my laptop at school. Instead, I had a pen and a notepad. Shockingly, I wrote down exponentially more ideas that way than I would have if I had typed them into Google Docs. From marketing ideas, shooting notes, potential locations, brand new ideas, scenarios for scenes, priorities for production order, and even a little revenge; a ton of ideas flowed, almost because I was without the distractions of the internets.
Just got a fabulous email from a film student in Australia saying that he just saw one of my videos from FRAMELINES in his class. Positively surreal to have my fat face showing up in classrooms in another hemisphere and continent! Submitted FRAMELINES to two more contests. I donít even like competition, but I want the show to get seen more.
Screened the Cell Phone Monologues last night. Had a blast with some old friends too. Packed house, lots of good movies, mostly from the younger set (entirely except for me). I just want to see my movies on the big screen. I detest the competitive side of things and couldnít care less about beating someone else. I think everyone puts way too much emphasis on the sport of it. Then again. I already made a podcast about me feelings, sarcastic posts aside.
I am struggling mightily with this concept known as ďjealousyĒ. I do not understand it. It is not something I have experienced. I know envy, in the not detrimental ďOh, I wish I had that or could do thatĒ way. I do not get it. Where does animosity and anger come into play? What connects someone elseís success or failures to my own? Why does something I am doing evoke any kind of emotion in someone else? These things perplex me.
Went to the Colony Film Festival in Marietta Ohio. I love this festival, one of my all time favorites. I spoke there in 2011 as a guest speaker. If you have an hour or so and need to enter a coma, or feel somewhat suicidal, you can see a video of that here. Last night I went here with the lovely Elizabeth McPherson who co-wrote and starred in the Cell Phone Monologues.
Got the two greenscreen shoots done in the midst of 10-13 hour work days. I love keeping to my promise to myself; keep making movies. As I said recently, 15 years ago if I had seen the studio where I worked, all I would want to do is make movies all the time so that is exactly what I will do. I was operating with a lack of sleep, bleeding, pain in my foot, and stress from the TV spots weíre working on, but on the 2nd take, I started to come back to life. Taking a 20-30 minute break from the day job really did a lot for my energy.
Want to know what I just realized? 14-15 years ago when I started to become a filmmaker, I dreamed about working at a studio, having a lighting grid, an office with an editing machine, and constantly having projects to work on. I am living that dream right now. That makes me feel grateful, to the universe, to my boss, to karma, to everyone who played a role in getting me to where I am today.
As if I'm not busy enough - We're working on a national ad campaign where we only have 2 weeks to complete a WHOLE LOTTA work. And yet I am determined to make myself somewhat suicidal because I just agreed to teach a class because it's their hardest project of the one year program and I've been with them for every video module in the curriculum thus far and didn't want to miss this. And I'm going to do a shoot of 3 new greenscreen bits this week too.
Had a total blast yesterday. Screened a bunch of stuff at Indieclub Cleveland. Yet again, a lot of discussion sparked by the Sonnyboo Podcasts and the topics therein. I also showed the re-edit of the last Movie Cliche.
Not much time off this weekend. Going to screen a few things in Cleveland. Probably going to edit a few of these odds and ends that I've let straggle by the wayside. Things like an updated director's reel, an alternate and funnier edit to one of the Movie Cliche series. Since I don't have a need for one and the other already exists in one form; not a priority. I keep making up new things to do too.
Surprise in the mail today, got a stack of THANK YOU letters from the High School I spoke to last week, along with a gift card. I am genuinely moved by this, although I assume the teacher made them do this. If I was wondering if the kids were paying attention, then these letters clearly showed they were. I talked a bit about several things in brief, and they brought up several of these obscurities in the letters.
Speaking of positivity, I submitted to the Emmyís again this year. The ceremony will be in Columbus, so why not? Well, because I didnít win last year and based on what I saw, I donít believe I will win again, as I donít think what weíve done with FRAMELINES resonates with voters. Iím too casual a host, and the subject matter is too ďinside baseballĒ even to the judges themselves. Then again, itís all new judges from a different region. Who knows? I entered in 2 categories this year to double the chances.
Got all three scripts written last night for a greenscreen shoot today that I put off from Friday. That is the last time I ever let drama get in the way of any shoot. Never again will I let personal bullshit stop me from making something. EVER. Making a movie, and I donít care if itís a :30 second commercial, a podcast, short film, sitcom, documentary, or feature film - THAT is what matters. Not this other nonsense. Let other people talk. Iím gonna create.
Last night on the phone with a friend, I had a total epiphany and two more video podcast ideas just BAM! flowed out. I was literally in the middle of describing how to output Microsoft DV AVIís to create proxies for editing on older systems, and had to stop and jot down these two ideas. Yes, it was rude, but donít you hate it when you have a great idea, donít have time to write it down, then forget the actual idea, but do remember that you had a great idea?
Definitely re-shooting this Movie Cliche podcast again. No, not just because I looked enormously fat last year, but because I have no close ups. Although, I ainít gonna lie; the Fat Ross is almost a good enough reason to re-shoot. No, I established a style of editing I like with wide shots cutting to close ups on greenscreen and I want consistency. That and weíre now using a much better camera with the Panasonic AF100, and our new and improved greenscreen too. Itís so much easier to key off the painted wall than the crappy construction paper we had a year ago.