Was just dealt a devastating financial blow. Doesnít feel good to lose work, especially when I have put years into this kind of client. Iím not destitute or anything. It just doesnít feel great, ya know? A lot of plans, like taking another vacation, first one in 3 years, just went to pot. It also puts a damper on some film work I was going to do this fall. I wonít have the $$ to make what I want the way I want it. Decisions have to be made and soon.
I love the International Indie Gathering. Itís a film festival and indie film convention combined into one. I come every year to this event and have a blast. I worked so much this past week, between edits for 3 different companies, wrapping up several projects, teaching 3 classes, and dealing with a flea infestations with my feline roommates; I am exhausted. And yet I drove 2 hours and setup shot in the vendor room.
Got another edit for me done. Only one more in the queue that has been shot and not edited. After that, I will need to start getting back to my weekly Greenscreen habit. In the past several months I have outlined several more Sonnyboo Podcasts, some funny to me, others more educational, and some personal. There are several short films in my head itching to get out. The fermentation process takes time as I want a script to be a lot tighter than I would have accepted in the past.
Iíve been ill again. It seems having a compromised immune system isnít much of a picnic. A simple cold can demolish me along with a simple cut gets infected inside of a day. And sleep can be quite elusive at times, which makes the recovery take longer. I hate getting sick all the time. At least I got to a simple :30 second edit I was sitting on for months. Next up a few more edits from the ďshot not cutĒ queue.
Spending a little time in Cleveland and Northern Ohio lately makes me miss my roots a little. Not too much, as I am very happy with Rossland and life therein. Editing at home has made a huge difference on a near complete lack of stress where work is concerned. Production, Post production, and all that entails keeps my head spinning like a top.
The Summer of Ross continues. Not a lot of sun. A lot of good food. Had some drinks last night and that had been a while. I might make some more electric lemonade tonight as the sun sets and sit on my back porch chatting with the roommates. The vacation from doing my own projects will soon end. I need to get back to work on things for me. I wonít lie and say it hasnít felt good to take time off. Stress is the one thing I have no experienced in weeks.
Buried in edits, freelancing and doing work and doing favors. I am never fully at rest. Taking the summer ďoffĒ has been one of the busiest times of my professional life. I did an edit for one client for a full day, taught for 4 hours, went home and edited on a TV spot for another 3 hours. The one huge boon is cash money. I want to stockpile some money away as savings and for some more responsible adulty items. Growing up sucks.
Ugh. For a summer off, I sure feel busy. Teaching classes, shooting new material for FRAMELINES, and paid work for clients means Iím not so much getting time off as much as I am not doing anything for me. In the end, it will be okay. The butter is churning in my brain. Some ideas are forming and soon I will be making the movies again. And not just simple podcasts either.
Last weekend was fun. The HORROR HOTEL, from the INDIE GATHERING folks, was a chance to sell some DVDís and books. Given the genre, my old film HORRORS OF WAR/NAZI ZOMBIES was at the forefront of interest. This time, I was intent on giving away a lot of stuff for free, so some FRAMELINES DVDís and prints of articles I've written for Videomaker Magazine went out to as many people as could take them.
My summer just got booked up real fast. I have been invited to be a panelist or moderator for indie film panels at 3 different events, two of which are coming up in June. Next weekend Iíll have a vendor booth to sell my wares, but this time Iím bringing a ton of free stuff to give away, some articles and bonus materials. I will be quite visible in the indie film world this summer.
The past few weeks have been a flurry of furry. I adopted a little kitten. I was told she was 8 weeks old and already eating hard food. Turns out that was a lie. She was a little over 3 weeks old and had not been weaned off of her mommaís nipple. So that meant bottle feeding a kitten every 2-3 hours like an infant, plus she was too young to sleep on her own since she wasnít capable of maintaining her own body heat yet. That meant light sleeping out of fear of rolling over her and crushing under my enormous fatness.
The last couple weeks have really sucked. My health took a massive turn for the worse. What started as basic conjunctivitis quickly turned into a serious threat to losing all vision in my left eye because of the MRSA I have. Yesterday was a flurry of doctor visits getting shuffled around from one emergency place to another. Luckily, all is well as the new medication is working wonderfully and fast. I am so grateful to those who came to my rescue on this one.
Weather warms, heart lifts, and yet the body crumbles. I have conjunctivitis and it really hurts. I cannot see out of my left eye. At least I got 2 things edited before I this travesty kit. I have decided that this summer I intend to take it way easy, just relax and do a minimal amount of film/video work. I want to drink wine and watch the sunsets, have people over to grill out, and watch movies into the wee hours.
Weeks later and I am still sick. Coughing, voice gone, throat shredded. I hate feeling like this. When I was a kid, getting sick meant staying home from school and watching TV. Now it means terror of not making a mortgage payment because no work = no pay. Everything has been pushed off to the side because I canít stay focused for very long.
I have had a really strange week or so. I went from being violently ill to a hotbed of writing for college to almost getting fired which transformed into a new job and a raise. How funny that someone trying to get me fired turned into a significant increase in my annual salary. Karma loves me. It must explain why so many good things keep happening in my life of late.
So I hit a major milestone with my main YouTube account; one million combined views. Back in 2006, I already had all of my short films made by then on a myriad of video websites, including iFilm.com, Atomfilms.com, Triggerstreet.com, Reelmind.com, movieflix.com, undergroundfilms.com, and a slew of others - not a single one of which exists today as a platform for distribution like Youtube, owned by Google (which sadly had Google Video that I was entirely invested in with videos). So when Youtube started up, I had fatigued on keeping up with uploading my 30+ short films to every single site and thought this one wouldnít be any different. Boy was I wrong.
Did a big shoot this past weekend with a world famous body builder. I was run ragged after the big national TV spot ad campaign, but decided to do this anyway. Money is money, and the guy was way cool to work for. I also put some money into a friendís pocket as an assistant for the day. I didnít even need the help, but spreading the good will always pays out in karmic debt.
One of the perpetually fascinating aspects of filmmaking in the Internet era remains how fragile egos can be. I guess what really keeps me interested is when people try to write things with the intent to hurt feelings in the exact same way the a grade schooler would. Writing things like ďyou suck!Ē or ďyouíre an ass!Ē are supposed to evoke a reaction, but the only one I get are chuckles at the simplistic and rather pedestrian attempts at angering me.
The past several days have really sucked. I got the flu whilst in the middle of the national ad campaign. I managed to get my work done, but practically nothing else. It was work, nap, work, nap and no time to so much as look at a few emails. My head hurts, canít taste anything, snot pouring from my nose, and a fever. Thank god for the people who have been taking care of me.
The snow and the cold; not fun. Buried in a mountain of a few hundred TV spots I have to make and upload. I have a few breaks for render time. I might be sleeping on some of those little short breaks. Working long hours including Friday nights and all weekend are normal for this project. Oddly, I love this work. I love what I do for a living, and I am loving life so much these days.