In Poland at Aushwitz I remember seeing this sign over the gates, a most horrifying lie, but in the context of my own life it rings true - WORK SHALL SET YOU FREE. Sometimes I feel like Mickey Mouse in Fantasia, a magician manipulating colors and pictures and sound into something special. Iím editing on the 4th of July. What I want to do most in life is make movies.
Sound mix is done on the next Cell Phone Monologue! Magnetic Studios kicked in and did an amazing job sweetening the audio and bringing out the best. George Lucasí oft used quote ďSound is 50% of the experience of any filmĒ rings true for me on every movie I make. Now, having a true professionals work on the last 2 Cell Phone Monologues has taught me a lot about great sound and makes me feel more amateurish in my feeble attempts.
Iím trying to work out several things at once. I want to trace some of my obsessive-compulsive tendencies, so that I can therapeutically work through them. Specifically, I want to be able to watch movies and not obsess over the edits I need (read: want) to do. Iím also on the lookout for my Ďtriggersí for what upsets me in other arenas. Although I am not particularly thinking negative thoughts at the moment, I want to be be aware of what sets this off. It isnít random just because I didnít make the connection.
Got out and saw a movie yesterday (World War Z). Progress is made. Today I intend to watch a few movies at home as I do laundry. Itís domestic day even though Iím also going to do some editing for FRAMELINES too. I wish FRAMELINES made more money as I love editing on the show. I just get entirely burned out editing all day and then all night on something else.
Picture lock done on the new-new podcast. No idea how to use this, as it will be okay for FRAMELINES, but also on the web it will belong to Sonnyboo. All I need is music for it and the first of two will be set. I got to tinker with After Effects for animation for the majority of this. Nothing particularly special or unique, just making the numbers do a little more than what is possible in the NLE, thatís Non Linear Editing software for the noobs.
Lord almighty I feel great! The Telly Awards arrived today. I am officially better than my nemesis at school. Thereís 3rd party verification. Thereís a statue on my shelf, if nothing else, proof that I have one and she does not. Tack on top all the editing and shooting getting done and I just plain canít stand how freakiní sweet life is at this very moment.
Did I use the ďfreeĒ time this week to watch movies? Nope. Did I do the dishes that have piled up over a week? Partially. Did I get all that laundry done that needed cleaned? Nope. What I did get done was a decent amount of editing and prep work. I cannot allow myself to fully be immersed in what I was like before, as that would not be prudent or responsible. Finding a balance, that is key.
Screening went well last night. The new Cell Phone Monologues are doing good. The MOVIE CLICHE podcast is going to do great methinks. Switching to a hot blonde as the host, especially one with charisma and talent, makes a big difference compared to me, then casting myself as the tubby bachelor in a cameo, gets more laughs than I anticipated. When a room full of strangers laughs at your sloth; not the best feeling in the world, but that is entirely 100% my own fault. At least I knew going in what I was doing when we made this.
Last night was something of a flashback to days of yore. I fired up the edit I started at school, just to make some technical adjustments, IE color correction basics, checking the timeline for errors in sound blips or little things; no intention whatsoever to edit. I blink and itís 2:35AM and I have a first cut all the way done. I thought I was tinkering for a few minutes, maybe an hour max. I started this at 8:21PM. I love it when my mind can become so lost in the work that there is no sense of time.
The first tape of 6 episodes of FRAMELINES with Closed Captions dubbed just fine. So much stress left my body when I put that tape in a mail pouch. I took on a class for this morning to teach. It was fun since I demonstrated some editing things. Iím not giving myself any time off. I wound myself up too tight the last few weeks.
I am so lucky. There are people in my world that just save me left and right. If it werenít for others, Iíd be screwed. The Closed Captioning Nightmare 2013 has been solved. An upgrade to Sony Vegas 12 saved the day. Captions from the updated software are ingesting just fine with Adobe Premiere CS5.5, outputting to tape on Line 21, and FRAMELINES has been saved. All because of the generosity of others.
How do you keep going? When you learn how little time there can be, or how someone may not always be there; what makes us move forward? Once I was told that I was neither planned nor wanted. All this time I knew that my life was my own and no one elses. Iíve made good and bad decisions, just like everyone else. Iím not keeping a tally of how much of each. Right now I feel like I am on a razorís edge. With all the positive events, I can be so easily derailed.
Inspiration and ideas are a-flowing. Knowing where to begin and how a movie ends; thatís the hardest part. Getting these things out of your head and onto a screen; thatís the best. Iíve got script written for the shoot on Friday and Iíve got to schedule a new shoot for the podcast series ASAP.
My biggest riddle is still not solved. I need to get Closed Captions on FRAMELINES before the end of the week and as of yet, I have absolutely NO IDEA how to make that happen. The panic of Thursday-Friday eroded on Saturday. Saw MAN OF STEEL (eh, pretty good but no DARK KNIGHT), and relaxed, and today was spent on a whole other project with a deadline of tomorrow morning.
Getting caught up on some reading of other peopleís screenplays. Iím not producing or directing these, but just giving my opinions (I was asked for once). Giving notes on a scripts should never ever be done via email, lessons learned a long time ago. Always talk in person about what you like and donít like.
We setup a new network at the office. Production Partners needed a better system for sharing files. Since we have the Sonnyboo Intern Army and a workflow for editing, the need to share assets (meaning footage, music, stills, and anything we use in an edit) became essential. We also bought a 6 Terabyte drive to use for redundant backups stock elements.
Holy Cow! FRAMELINES has been nominated for an Emmy! To be honest, I thought the two Telly Awards were gonna be it. This summer I might have to have a metaphorical menage a troi with all my trophies. Iíll get family Christmas cards made in July with me, the cats, and the awards. Iíll send them to everyone Iíve ever known (take that ex girlfriend!!! You coulda been with an Emmy Winner!!!)
Got a ton of editing done today. Finished the last tech tip I shot in December. Got the 2nd Movie Cliche podcast edited with final graphics and sound. Iím uploading 5 Framelines videos right now. All of this really comes down to procrastinating over the edit of a segment for Framelines. I have this interview that Iíve been putting off for over 2 years. Whatís the mental block? I have NO IDEA.
Itís been a year almost to the day since I ended my long term relationship. What an incredibly odd 12 months this has been. Before the relationship dissolved, I was already in a state of mild depression. I couldnít make a movie and all I want to do is make movies, long or short. It was a creative form of impotence. I donít have that problem anymore.
Iíve got so much going on, my head is swimming. This weekend is about a certain amount of relaxation, and some light editing. Next week Iíll present some sneak peeks at the Mid Ohio Filmmakers Association meeting, then more at the IndieClub Cleveland meeting later this month. Deadlines help facilitate progress.