Was just dealt a devastating financial blow. Doesn’t feel good to lose work, especially when I have put years into this kind of client. I’m not destitute or anything. It just doesn’t feel great, ya know? A lot of plans, like taking another vacation, first one in 3 years, just went to pot. It also puts a damper on some film work I was going to do this fall. I won’t have the $$ to make what I want the way I want it. Decisions have to be made and soon. My plan to go back to college in January is in jeopardy. I have to go meet with the admission and financial aid offices and see what I need to make this work. I am ready for this big change in my life.
I would have been editing the last week, but a virus has taken me several days to just reformat, reinstall, and I am still not fully back to where I was. Hours upon hours of just staring at a blue line crossing the screen. And it doesn’t even feel good because I’m just struggling to get back to where I already was.
Summer has definitely ended. The sun goes down early. The temperature lowers. And I am gearing up for a couple shoots for myself. The scripts are fermenting. Like a fine wine, I keep revising and rewriting. I want the screenplays to be the best they can be before the shoot.
“Sometimes you picture me –
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you’ve said –
Then you say – go slow –
I fall behind –
The second hand unwinds”
– Cyndi Lauper