My weekend off became editing on both Saturday and Sunday on a client project. Less cleaning, less sleep, less relaxation. I worked on my calendar for May, and I have booked so many things, paid, unpaid, parties, and shoots that it was an absolute miracle that not a single thing was double booked.
I have officially put a bid in on buying a house. I’m turning into such a grown up. Two years ago I started to rebuild my life when I was 40 years old. I hated starting over as it seems like I’ve already lived 3-4 lifetimes. From my imbecilic youth in Wadsworth Ohio to the turbulent times in El Paso Texas to my “journey as a filmmaker” (if that doesn’t sound too pretentious, which it does).
Something has happened in the last year to me. I rediscovered my passion for making movies. That drive constantly knocks against my desire to better the quality of what I make. Finding a balance, or additional output sated the restless demon that demands I make and promote, while either putting off or developing the material I intend to put a significant improvement in quality on.
And when harmony and peace settle in, life will inevitably bring a hurricane into my midst. Rather than allow the negative in, I want to ignore the devastation and keep on building on the positives. I’ve shed the people who were more like a cancer in my life, streamline down to the ones who actually matter.
I will still do things for other people, whether they deserve it or not. I’m not a judge, nor is it my mandate to only help those who are right or just. I believe in doing the right thing because it is the right thing to do, not because of a direct reciprocation of goodwill.
Since I worked on Saturday, then did revisions to an edit on Sunday; I’m thinking about taking Tues and/or Wed off. If we book a shoot for FRAMELINES, then that plan will go to hell in a handbasket, but it’s good to dream, isn’t it?
Since I’m about to buy a house, my plans to upgrade the ol’ editing computer for the homestead just went away too. That’s not too heartbreaking. It works okay, except I can’t use Element 3D in After Effects.
All in all, I’m maintaining the good buzz.
“Searching all my days just to find you. I’m not sure who I’m looking for. I’ll know it when I see you”
– John Mayer