The murky funk passes again. Teaching 2 classes this week helped get me out of the ditch. I try to bring my “A”-Game to teaching. I plan things above and beyond what is expected and on the page. I create interactive material, present more video tutorials, and whatever this internal Read more…
I’m still swimming in a sea of malaise. There is a lot of potential in one aspect of hope and that’s in Accidental Art. I want to make this movie damn it. It’s been ripe ever since we got the script in order. I’ve let too much affect my confidence. Depression Read more…
You see? This is what I’m talking about. I want to continue to be generous when I choose to, but this makes it very hard. I have a stellar example that vexes me. It makes it nearly impossible to ignore. Some people talk about you behind your back, thinking that no Read more…
Let’s delve deeper into my past, to the root of some of my issues if you will. I am in no way unaware of many of the causes to my psychological needs and wants. Of course upbringing colored my views. I always feel I am ultimately responsible for all of Read more…
I continue, slowly, to paint and redecorate the homestead. It’s like I’m erasing the bad memories, or even evil spirits that live in the walls. When I lived in this 100 year old house in the 1990’s, first with some friends, and then later just roommates, no matter how bad Read more…
For those of you faithful readers of my blog, I have noted that some of you showed concern about being so honest and blunt in the public eye. And even about how this is somewhat one sided, but aren’t all blogs? More importantly, I had not in the thick of Read more…
Hope lives on the horizon. Sometimes you get a sign and for me that came from a filmmaker meeting and I told someone the storyline of ACCIDENTAL ART. It was like I was breathing for the first time in a few years, as if sunshine came out and hit me Read more…
Not too long ago I had what I would consider a kind of spiritual experience. I felt as though something or someone was trying to tell me something and it wasn’t the kind of rational, corporeal experience I normally have. I don’t drink, nor do I do drugs (which is Read more…
Life goes on. I don’t know why, but it does. There are good days and there are bad days. Sometimes the days a dull, others are filled to the brim with excitement and adventure. Who knows what causes the patterns? I’m contemplative these days. The death of someone you know Read more…
Yeah, still not feeling great. Another toothache and now the flu don’t exactly help. People take from these blogs whatever they want. I have no real control over that and it’s not really anything I care to correct. Misunderstandings, assumptions, and preconceived notions conspire to create whatever image of me Read more…
So, it happened. I never intended to get someone’s entire YouTube account shut down, but that is exactly what happened. I know because it’s so easy in today’s world to obtain a video and to re-upload it yourself, but it doesn’t negate the fact the Intellectual Property laws are still Read more…
I already know how this is going to play out. It’s not fair that I can see certain aspects of the future like a crystal ball. The truth is it wasn’t personal. I am on a content ID aware program that alerts me to ANYONE who uploads my own short Read more…