Stars line up, fate intervenes, and good things happen. I have a series of fortunate events that collide at the same time. For this I am grateful. It’s been awhile since things went my way. I’m making a little extra money, my first class graduates next week, I’m getting my Read more…
I can’t wait until my vacation next month. To Florida I go. A week of pretty much nothing but sitting under a palm tree and not having anything resembling stress is the plan. I am also booked as a guest speaker at a convention for Public Access early next month. Read more…
This is what I mean. My life has become a never ending succession of frustrations and disappointments. Tonight I got a TXT at 11:45 asking me if I wanted to come over. When a beautiful 24 year old girl sends this kind of TXT is usually means one thing. This Read more…
Now I don’t know what I’m feeling. Not quite numb, not depressed, but not excited. I worked on the house today. Painted a door, decorated a bit, cleaned a lot. I also sat on the new leather couch and pet the cats for over an hour. Trying to cut down Read more…
Rise to the occasion. Putting my head back on. Lifting everything to meet the challenges. My obstacles are simple. Get up every day, breathe, and walk out the door. Some days are easier than others. Hope is not lost, not yet. My first true love remains in my heart, and Read more…
I’m still swimming in a sea of malaise. There is a lot of potential in one aspect of hope and that’s in Accidental Art. I want to make this movie damn it. It’s been ripe ever since we got the script in order. I’ve let too much affect my confidence. Depression Read more…
The murky funk passes again. Teaching 2 classes this week helped get me out of the ditch. I try to bring my “A”-Game to teaching. I plan things above and beyond what is expected and on the page. I create interactive material, present more video tutorials, and whatever this internal Read more…
You see? This is what I’m talking about. I want to continue to be generous when I choose to, but this makes it very hard. I have a stellar example that vexes me. It makes it nearly impossible to ignore. Some people talk about you behind your back, thinking that no Read more…
Let’s delve deeper into my past, to the root of some of my issues if you will. I am in no way unaware of many of the causes to my psychological needs and wants. Of course upbringing colored my views. I always feel I am ultimately responsible for all of Read more…
I continue, slowly, to paint and redecorate the homestead. It’s like I’m erasing the bad memories, or even evil spirits that live in the walls. When I lived in this 100 year old house in the 1990’s, first with some friends, and then later just roommates, no matter how bad Read more…
For those of you faithful readers of my blog, I have noted that some of you showed concern about being so honest and blunt in the public eye. And even about how this is somewhat one sided, but aren’t all blogs? More importantly, I had not in the thick of Read more…
Hope lives on the horizon. Sometimes you get a sign and for me that came from a filmmaker meeting and I told someone the storyline of ACCIDENTAL ART. It was like I was breathing for the first time in a few years, as if sunshine came out and hit me Read more…