Trying to maintain my focus has become much harder than I remember. When I work a lot, especially teaching, it drains all energy out of me. I feel as though I cannot make the commitment to watch TV a movie or read a book for very long. I spend hours Read more
I never get out to see movies like I used to. People with their cell phones or incessant talking degrade the theatrical experience as well. What I miss from theatrical however is the sharing of the excitement and the awe from the collective. I would never wait for DVD for an Read more
Holding steady. Between teaching two classes and editing, I have very little free time. It’s causing a lack of sleep which is not helping my walking and workouts. I’m still carving out time but man is this hard sticking with this. All my body and mind want to do with Read more
I see patterns everywhere. Even in randomness, patterns develop, not unlike the theory of fractals. This causes a degree of predictability. By no means a perfect system or entirely precognitive or anything like that. In some ways seeing these repeatable patterns has made life a little dull at times, as Read more
From most people, my cynicism would decry inspirational messages as nothing but platitudes, but getting to know you a little better, and that it is finely written, means I appreciate it and respect the words. I’m trying, really trying. I’m less numb than I was. Happiness and pleasure still elude me Read more
Tomorrow begins the gym membership. Indoor pool, indoor walking track, and free weights. I might start taking this health thing into serious territory, which is foreign to my body. In many ways I think having a clear head & working body all culminate into making me more productive as a Read more
One holiday down, just a few more to go! Thanksgiving wasn’t that bad. Family then friends, and a 3 mile walk at Blacklick park in between. I really am getting healthier. This week has been a regression with several bad habits. Two days of serious indulgence in Internet addiction with Read more
Karma’s a bitch. Sooner or later, in this life or the next, we pay for our sins. I pay for mine time and again, over and over it seems. What I know now is that you just take whatever life throws at you. The goal is simply not to get Read more
So I guess this year I am a GCAC Artist Fellowship in Media Finalist. I went to the open judging panel for this. I knew I was in the top 12, but they only really have a top 9, so I was the first submission cut, so I went ahead Read more
Back from Florida. What an incredibly relaxing, non-stressful journey. I conquered a big fear for myself. I have a genuine phobia of swimming alone, even in a pool. If I am in the water alone, I panic and some overwhelming need to get out of the water takes me and Read more
A week long vacation really isn’t much time, but it sure does feel great. It makes the work you have to face seem a little less daunting or boring. You start to miss the patterns of your semi-daily life. My patterns have been reconfiguring a lot over the last few Read more